Before the Dream

 This might not be what you’ve expected and frankly I don’t expect you to understand anything.

I was just a lost kid with no idea what I’m doing (just like what I’m doing now). Before the dream I had no mentor, no focus, everyday I woke up just because it’s another day. 

The truth is, after the loss of my parents I had one person to look up to, my granny, gogoMsimango. She was magnificent, all loving, her smile was so different to all the smiles you’ve ever seen, she was the light. She had good intentions, every weekend she would tell me stories, some were fictional and some were just about my mother (I’ve never seen her, but she was cool). She took care of me in ways I couldn’t understand. I had little focus in school that time. Then I discovered I was kinda different than the rest when it comes to maths. She was pleased, I was too(not that much). 

Then she passed too. It was all sudden. All I remember is she went to check her blood pressure and never came back. 

I was lost for almost a whole year! I was this🫰 close to going to jail. Nothing mattered to me that time. I don’t know what was happening really.

Going to the sixth grade I heard to change schools, change places, someone else had to look after me, it was my Aunt. 

I moved to another school way before the dream,(what’s the dream, lol). Relocation wasn’t fun I can tell you that. I’m not gonna go into detail about how things went there, but all you need to know is I settled and adapted to the new life(not a good one). 

I finished my primary school and went for high school still with no good friends though I tried making ones in previous school but I had lost my light so..

New school, God comes through. The dream is here….

I hope next time you’ll understand.

Peace,

zillion